I guess I’ve always been that way. We moved away from that school to a new town that following year. My memory of middle school is a blur of uncomfortable moments and scholastic glimmers, and in High School I went

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That summer, right after my husband had surgery, during a thunderstorm like a friggin movie, we found that while we were camping, a tree root broke through the wet basement of our rented house and RATS invaded. We found this

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in 2014 I met a girl at work who was currently going to court against her childhood rapist. Her old man next door neighbor from ages 9-16. You will be happy to know she won. And he’s gone away now.

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Also in March 2020, I met the narcissist. Please know I do not like to use ANY proper terms, let alone misuse an over popularized one that has lost its true meaning. I mean very literally, DSM5 evil narc. What’s

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In October he beat me up for the first (and worst) time. Really let it all out on my face via the shift stick. I came out of it looking a MESS. He kept me locked up for a month

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As narcs do- he kept coming back. It was basically my lack of food and cigarettes that made his arrival welcomed. I hadn’t had income for a long time. My food stamps lapsed because I could not answer the phone

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But I STILL wasn’t down. I knew if I took the tax return money and got an apartment, without an income- I would run out very soon and be in the same boat all over again very soon. 2 years

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I knew I would not get away from him right there. My sister was the only family or person I had left in the world and I tried to tell her about the obstacles I was experiencing. Thinking not working.

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